is heavy in my mind. It’s like being caught up in the waves during a storm; breaking free of the water to gasp and to feel alive, only to be sucked back in. I feel apathetic, so I don’t do my work. I panic about having so much work that I can’t take the weight of the waiting work, so I put it off only to have it pile on much heavier. This would be okay if it weren’t the week of exams. The final time has come, and I’m not prepared.
What if this costs me my admittance? Where will I be then? If I’m not able to go to UNCA, I don’t know what I’ll do. I really don’t. This fear is too much, so I push it away too. Now I have too much to do in too little time. Is being sucked into a metaphorical dark hole in your life a good enough excuse to be absent another day?